I didn’t get the newsletter out Friday. Might end up either getting it out as late as Monday. I have a freelance project that I need to get out by Monday, and I’ll likely be working on it through the weekend.

Been listening repeatedly to this talk on YouTube that references and takes inspiration from Alan Watts and the “desire to lie down all day,” which is exactly how I’ve been the past few weeks. I’ve shut down so much lately; honestly, this has been the case for much of the year, particularly since I was laid off. I had hoped to be recovered enough from burnout by now – and I have had moments of recovery – but I feel so brought down daily by a fatigue of the soul even now.

Meanwhile, I continue to wrestle with chronic pain. Doctor visits have come up with nothing, really. I’ve decided to invest in a few supplements that target the pain, much of which I suspect is connected to menopause (and which my new ob/gyn insists is just arthritis that should be fine wth a little ibuprofen). I have begun to see why so many people go all RFK Jr. with their health and take monkey hormones for headaches or whatever – the conventional health care industry feels like such a profound failure in so many ways.